I miss Tanner so much. It's a strange thing to have sadness creep in on you when it's a sunny beautiful day outside, and you're getting to do what you love.
It shows up out of nowhere, and usually- for me anyway- after a great thought, which only adds to the shock. I was just thinking about how much Tanner would love hearing and messing around with (and possibly breaking) my banjo. He would giggle, we would make up songs, it would be awesome.
It's so surreal to have my happy thoughts spin into sad thoughts, and then right back into happy ones.
I gave some money to the American Foundation for Suicide Prevention today. I don't tell you this to brag or to make myself feel good, I tell you this to empower us.
Sometimes they're happy things and sometimes, they're sad. When the sadness comes, we have a choice. We can give up, declare the world is against us, or we can fight.
We can make change possible.
And when we don't have the ability to do what we know needs to happen, we can find people in the world who are taking on difficult challenges every single day and we can support them.
That's why I wanted to tell you that I supported AFSP today. There is always hope.
Hopefully yours, Kristen